When dysphoria strikes...

This past weekend, my wife and I finally got around to seeing Frozen, which has instantly become my favorite non-Pixar Disney movie! Seriously, it’s that good! Unfortunately, as amazing as Frozen is, it was also incredibly triggering of feelings I haven’t had in a while. My old pal dysphoria decided it was time to visit town. Gender dysphoria and I go way back, in fact, I can’t remember a time in my life when she wasn’t around. [Read More]

Looking forward to 2014

Well, 2014 is just about here and I guess that means it’s time to put together a list of goals for the upcoming year. I’m not particularly into the idea of resolutions per se, but I like having things to work toward and a direction for my life. It helps to add some meaning to each day and motivate me to spend less time with my ass on the couch. [Read More]

How transitioning changed me as a runner and do I have an advantage as a transgender athlete?

I’ve written about a lot of this over the course of the last few months, but a few people have requested a post dedicated to how I’ve changed as a runner because of transition. Since I’ve read two articles about transgender athletes in the past few days, I figured it was finally time to write about it myself. While my experience has been in line with the experiences of other trans women I’ve spoken to regarding the topic, I do want it to be noted that this is very specifically about my experience and it may not be universal to all transgender (women) runners. [Read More]

Looking back at my favorite moments of 2013

On my old blog, the pre-transition one, I used to enjoy doing end of the year posts so I figured why not continue the tradition here with a list of my favorite parts of 2013! *Walt Disney World and the Goofy Challenge* 2013 started out much like the last four years did, with an awesome trip to Disney World with my wife! This year, we ran the Goofy Challenge (half marathon one day and a marathon the next) for the second year in a row and it was every bit as awesome and magical as it’s ever been. [Read More]

Being transgender doesn't mean I'm just transgender

A few months ago, before I was publicly out to everyone about being transgender, I met with a friend I don’t see very often for drinks. He’s the kind of friend I can see just once every year or two without talking to much between hangouts and not have it be weird or awkward at all. For this particular hang, I had planned to come out to him about being trans, figuring it would be my last chance to do so before eventually coming out on Facebook (he’s not on it) and going “full time. [Read More]

It doesn't matter how fast of a runner you are, you can't outrun your past

I’ve talked before about how much I used to hate myself and how, looking back, it’s easy to see I used to be a crappy person. I’ve grown immensely and I’m not that same awful person. I don’t hate myself at all anymore. While I’ve been able to take ownership of my past and admit to the things I did and said, I’m learning I some of those things still have lasting effects I can’t easily undo or run from. [Read More]

Being transgender and transitioning doesn't make me brave or courageous

I hate to break it to you, but I’m not brave or courageous or any other similar such thing. I know, it certainly looks that way, what with the transitioning and deciding to live my life authentically and all that, but I’m not. This is the most consistent response I’ve received over the last year and a half when telling people about my transition. Don’t get me wrong, I truly do appreciate the sentiment and, even more than that, I appreciate the support it typically comes along with. [Read More]